that sinking feeling

loathing the fear of the unknown


Ask me anything  


i go crazy

by the band flesh for lulu.  released in 1987 on the band’s third studio album Long Live the New Flesh.  included, also, in the OST of the movie Some Kind of Wonderful.

i do, love.  i do.



anxious nikon f801s with nikkor 28-85mm f3.5-4.5 lenskodax b&w film i did a lot of backpacking in the Mountain Province area from 1999 to the early 2000’s. the beauty & serenity of the place provided the salve that helped ease the pain of my then hurting heart. when my work would allow it, i would sometime disappear in the area for a week with my camping gears & my camera. i would usually take trails off the usual tourist paths & would always try to get close to the locals of the place as much as i could. talking to them & knowing more about them.        i took this photo in one of my forays in the area.  i think it was in banaue.  hapao, in particular.  i saw her, the kid, looking at me intently as i pass by. when i pointed my camera at her, she tried to hide behind that wood fence. lucky that i was able to get one shot as she darted off to her house right after i pushed the shutter button. i wasn’t able say thank you nor even give her a smile.

anxious

nikon f801s with nikkor 28-85mm f3.5-4.5 lens
kodax b&w film

i did a lot of backpacking in the Mountain Province area from 1999 to the early 2000’s. the beauty & serenity of the place provided the salve that helped ease the pain of my then hurting heart.

when my work would allow it, i would sometime disappear in the area for a week with my camping gears & my camera. i would usually take trails off the usual tourist paths & would always try to get close to the locals of the place as much as i could. talking to them & knowing more about them.       

i took this photo in one of my forays in the area.  i think it was in banaue.  hapao, in particular.  i saw her, the kid, looking at me intently as i pass by. when i pointed my camera at her, she tried to hide behind that wood fence.

lucky that i was able to get one shot as she darted off to her house right after i pushed the shutter button. i wasn’t able say thank you nor even give her a smile.



“ Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you. Lao Tzu


bashful nikon f801s with nikkor 28-85mm f3.5-4.5 lensfujicolor 100 filmc41 processing i was drawn to the bashful but friendly smile of this aeta kid.  i feel very lucky to have captured that smile in this photo.   i took this photo sometime in 1998 somewhere in tarlac.   just before taking an oven-hot 8-hour trek to the Mt. Pinatubo crater through eerily beautiful lahar-scuptured landscape.  

bashful

nikon f801s with nikkor 28-85mm f3.5-4.5 lens
fujicolor 100 film
c41 processing

i was drawn to the bashful but friendly smile of this aeta kid.  i feel very lucky to have captured that smile in this photo.  

i took this photo sometime in 1998 somewhere in tarlac.   just before taking an oven-hot 8-hour trek to the Mt. Pinatubo crater through eerily beautiful lahar-scuptured landscape. 
 



Thinking of You

An 80’s classic by The Colourfield.  This track came from the album Virgins & Philistines which was released in 1985.

We fell in love, got high, broke our hearts, & got drunk with this song. 



melancholy nikon f801s with nikkor 28-85mm f3.5-4.5 lensfujicolor 100 filmc41 processinghe had the saddest eyes, our neighbor’s kid, & i always wondered why.  i took this photo in the mid-90’s when i first got my own SLR camera. 

melancholy

nikon f801s with nikkor 28-85mm f3.5-4.5 lens
fujicolor 100 film
c41 processing

he had the saddest eyes, our neighbor’s kid, & i always wondered why.  i took this photo in the mid-90’s when i first got my own SLR camera. 



“ Think and wonder, wonder and think. Dr. Seuss


play yashica spotmatic sp with super-takumar 50mm f1.4lucky color 200 filmc41 processing would have to do more of this. :)  

play

yashica spotmatic sp with super-takumar 50mm f1.4
lucky color 200 film
c41 processing

would have to do more of this. :)  




“ Remembering a wrong is like carrying a burden on the mind. Siddharta Gautama


idyll nikon F80D with nikkor 20mm f2.8 lensfujicolor 100 filmc41 processing  ambuklao dam, benguet, mountain province

idyll

nikon F80D with nikkor 20mm f2.8 lens
fujicolor 100 film
c41 processing 

ambuklao dam, benguet, mountain province